fna cotton 6/30/10

Fucking cold
something she told
me to do
to say
to be
could I?
can ?
should I?
Fleeting and imaginary
belief in future change
or the current reality
either one may be a mirage
weather or temperment
equal and the same

OF 6/29/10

Orange fuzz
lint of thoughts
ponders zipper
decides to stay
climate is fine
breeze is cool
view is ok
green envy
of worldly travel
off to a plane seat
hope its warm

6/29/10

Poverty
Exchanged for happiness
people are born to help
to hold
$, bad relationships
boredom
industry standard
BP
shit poem

6/29/10

Poverty

questions 6/28/10

Do I have what I want
do I know what I want
can I get what I want
is what I want reasonable
who judges
how do you not overthink it.

10/27/10

Hope
dumbfounded and crass
bewildered with post manitions
preface and surenames
german engineering
vs.
french passion
is blood doping
or diving: the issue at hand?
or is it my thoughts
of what is
and what I see "is"
can they be the same?
can they be different?

Shit,
It will be tough to sleep tonight.

wilco copy 10/26/10

Impossible Ghana
Impressive diane
be there again
on hand at bow
walks unknown
path of soliders
returns on a gleam

6/25/10

death, anxiety, angst
what do to when not at the wheel
is there anything to say?
to do?
realizing 5 years ago, nothing
tonight I am not ready yet.

addiction 6/24/10

Addiction
short cut
cut off from world
america/paul
feel better now
self serving
self centered
self defined
to live for anyone else
is a lie
to be better tomorrow
is my truth
shanty's and spain
the world cup
freedom from tether
racism on the opposite globe
racism translates into any language
be better tomorrow
and the day after that
and the day after that
and the day after that.

6/23/10 cough cancer

Dust ball
huh?
throat potholes and gravel
lungs seared with screams
passion lost concept for me
I care, but not as much as some
germany. nine
englad
usa
no phone calls today
as it evens out the mind
breaks into the word need
and leaves only the philosophical yoke

6/23/10 cough cancer

to have/to have not 6/22/10

to have
to have not
both definitions change at the border
"why do americans need so much?"
from the guy in the six
need? hmmmmm
feel it is owed entitled
misconceptions, but valid
we are greedy pigs
birth control.
babies and kids and the world cup leaves in 14 days
nigerian scams, zimbabway shit
I can't complain about the cold
not after what I saw today
district 9, shanty
no building codes here
americans are self centered
only out side of US
have I ever felt over hosted
43 degrees in bed
reflection, more to say
hands too cold
see! self centered american #26894556

diamond poem 6/21/10

Whats that?
proof of how smart she is
a smile cracks my face
not because I am glad
she likes the poem
the contrary
well not even that
the fact that she knows the style
that the style just rolls of her tongue
in that comment. I remember
the entirety of who she is
and why I am drawn to her
Why maybe I need to look through the glass
at the choice of rug and tables
I will sleep on the rug
I will sit at the table
look deep into the room
maybe not as a prison
but home,
a safe place
dirty sheets, soft blanket
38 degrees
bedtime in south africa

diamond poem 6/21/10