Fire on the Mountain 9/25/2007

Gray frosting
Confettied curls
A paragraph in a nod
Creation without producing anything
No waste products – unless you count hangovers
2nd fiddle – pink with starch
Jealously or comrodary
The maestro must be hard to live with
Blinding light warms the carpet
Neutral colors and safe choices will offend no one
Crust forms on your moccasins, your dreams
Prolonged Midlife crisis from 25-death
Society has a collective guilt trip
Listen not to the masses, nor to the minority
Nor to the voice you identify as you
Share thoughts with the devil
Strive to learn both sides of everything
Have you ever truly loved?
Unhooked the safety line and jumped
Piano completes the sequence
As the guitar fades.

The magnificent Heron aka M E Z 9/24/2007

A majestic bird, slender, still, beautiful
Carries herself with the style of royalty
Stands on the shore taking in the moment
Pillows of fog paint the soft background
At peace with her role in nature
The most beautiful of birds, to me
Intricacies appreciated only by the experienced study
She stands oblivious to the attention she commands
Effortlessly she jumps from her silent cove
Her flight is smooth and peaceful
Large wings support the weight placed upon her by gravity and thought
Smooth strokes of strong feathers,
Hush, hush, hush
Tips touching the mirrored liquid
the earth breathing warm air aiding her journey
Coasting to a new safe harbor,
protected from the wind and commotion
Setting down without a sound
Gently landing in my dreams well into winter
Reminding me of my first experience
Standing transpontine, the water a natural barrier
The river too fast and deep to cross
that much I know from past attempts
If I could fly I would go to her.
Maybe if I am still.......

Random Quotes 9/21/2007

Whatever you think, be sure it is what you think;
whatever you want, be sure that is what you want;
whatever you feel, be sure that is what you feel.

T. S. Eliot (1888 -1965)

To be one’s self, and
unafraid whether right or wrong, is more admirable than the easy cowardice
of surrender to conformity.

Irving Wallace

We forfeit three-fourths of
ourselves in order to be like other people.


Arthur Schopenhauer (1788 - 1860)


All men profess honesty as
long as they can. To believe all men honest would be folly. To believe none
so is something worse.

Right turn signal 9/18/2007

Coffee shop to read - philosophy
Breathing warm air - fresh exhaust from passing traffic
“Paul” comes from neighboring booth as I approach
Her good friend-
Catching herself mid-speech as she says my name
Forgetting that I am the bad guy
Want to ask about her - Can’t
Want to call her - Can’t
Want to move on - Can’t
Want to understand this book,
The Critique of Practical Reason - Kant

Engineers Curse 9-17-2007

Problem arises
What is the problem?
Define it.
Discover it.
Analyze it.
Do I want to fix it?
Yes
Can I determine the cause?
Yes
Can I see a solution?
I think so.
Can I fix it?
Yes I can
Try plan A - backfire
Try plan B - Backfire
Try plan C - Backfire
Abort mission, I am not smart enough

Regroup,
you can do it
Yes, I can
Try plan A’ - fail
Try plan B’ - fail
Try plan C’ - fail
Abort

Regroup,
you can do it this time
Try plan A” - Whoops
Try plan B” - whoops
Try plan C” - whoops

I am smart, I see the cause, and the affect
I guess I am not good enough for this problem

Maybe it is not mine to solve......

I will just wait and be supportive.

Time is up I guess.

The girl of my dreams 9/17/07

I waited
I prepared
I dreamed
I avoided commitment to others
I pictured her
Tall, dark, athletic, kind, emotional, caring
I see her
I meet her
I date her
She loves me
I love her
I lied to her
She hates me
She doesn’t trust me
She cheats on me
I forgive her
She doesn’t
She pressures me
She needs more
I leave

I miss her
She misses me
I come back
I try harder
She doesn’t trust me
She doesn’t trust herself
I think I can hold on
I think I can help her find herself
She wonders why I am with her
She needs more
Pressure returns
I leave
I can’t live without her
I love her
I need trust, I need confidence
She finds someone else
Maybe I am not the one for her?
She is the one for me
I tell her
We are back
I try harder
I have success
I can do this
This is going to work
Pressure comes back
She pressures me
Her parents pressure her
I try to hang on
She tries to hang on
She pressures me
She can’t wait
I try to hold on
I try to hang on
I don’t want to let go
I can’t hold on
I don’t know what to do
I let go

I love the girl of my dreams

Lotus’s Competition 9-17-2007

Beautiful Art, Simple, German
Pronounced features, Forward, Gray
Strong lines and secure intersections
Soft rumble of metal, carbon and oil
Zen like peace anywhere it appears
Danger - Exhilaration
Escape around every corner
Boundaries exist only in your mind,
Your ability to visualize the path
Donor recipients and free spirits best friend
Mothers and fiancées worst enemy
False sense of control, security
Risking all you have, knowing it, accepting it.
Forgetting about death is easy when you are experiencing living
Your brain is trained to warn “Caution”
Your blood flow increases, primes the systems in use
Trust
Your mind asks for control back, your soul rejects the request
You lean, you turn your wrist, you melt into the moment
Connected now with the earth
You are one -with everything real.