Monday, September 17, 2007

The girl of my dreams 9/17/07

I waited
I prepared
I dreamed
I avoided commitment to others
I pictured her
Tall, dark, athletic, kind, emotional, caring
I see her
I meet her
I date her
She loves me
I love her
I lied to her
She hates me
She doesn’t trust me
She cheats on me
I forgive her
She doesn’t
She pressures me
She needs more
I leave

I miss her
She misses me
I come back
I try harder
She doesn’t trust me
She doesn’t trust herself
I think I can hold on
I think I can help her find herself
She wonders why I am with her
She needs more
Pressure returns
I leave
I can’t live without her
I love her
I need trust, I need confidence
She finds someone else
Maybe I am not the one for her?
She is the one for me
I tell her
We are back
I try harder
I have success
I can do this
This is going to work
Pressure comes back
She pressures me
Her parents pressure her
I try to hang on
She tries to hang on
She pressures me
She can’t wait
I try to hold on
I try to hang on
I don’t want to let go
I can’t hold on
I don’t know what to do
I let go

I love the girl of my dreams

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